This post is a big shout out to all who feel nervous to do anything alone. My message : Just do it once (even if it is with fake confidence). Allow me to tell you my experience regarding this.
All my childhood I had been a shy person. As I grew up, I slowly shed my shyness, but I still craved for human company. I was somewhat of what you call a clingy kind of person. I was a person who hated to stand out alone in front of a movie theatre if the person with me has gone even to get tickets .I just felt people staring at me everywhere if I am out alone. My spouse hated me for it some times, and I was hurt thinking that how can he not want me by his side all the time. After all, that is what guys are supposed to expect. Slowly, I started understanding his irritation and tried my best to start spending time alone. But, I was nervous, shy, scared, embarrassed to go out alone. It was somewhere in those days, when I put it on my bucket list : "Go out alone for lunch". I have read similar lines in a lot of self-improvement articles. In fact, today morning, I came across this line on Pinterest, and my reaction was : Gotcha ! I now know how much fun it is ! "
Yeah, that's true ! I finally struck it out of my bucket list about a fortnight back. I was sick for a few days at that time, due to vomiting and indigestion. I used to feel hungry but didn't have the appetite to eat anything at all. One day, at work, I just decided to eat a lot of good food and then wait and watch whether the vomiting continues or stops. Coincidentally, my only close friend/collegaue was on leave that day. I was nervous, obviously. But, I braced myself up and thought of just doing it. I was damn hungry since I had skipped breakfast (some internal issues with spouse). I just walked down to the nearest restaurant from my office and ordered a large plate of "Handi Biryani". Handi Biryani is just a kind of biryani that comes in a pot and it is a favourite of mine. It was a bit more for me, but when it comes to food, my stomach can just expand quite a lot when I want it to. I selected a window side table to feel satisfied in my own company. Initially, I felt alot of eyes on me probably thinking "Is this girl really going to eat this entire pot of biriyani here?". The waiter even asked me whether I would like to take it away or eat it there. I just said I am gonna eat.
So, there I was, sitting alone with nobody to disturb while I indulge myself in the heavenly bites of my favourite food. Once I started eating, I felt happy, kind of proud even. I felt independent to a different extent that day. All the discomfort, embarrassment and shyness just faded away with each bite. After a while, I even sensed a few eyes on me looking with respect. (Of course, even the judgemental look as well the adoration looks were both products of my overthoughtful mind).
And now, I am so addicted to doing this, that I just don't call my friend when I go for lunch, and she gets upset with me sometimes due to this. That's a full circle I guess. From me being in the place where I used to get upset with my spouse, to being in the place where someone is getting upset with me for the very same reasons.
Haha !!! Now I feel wise :) So, all you guys and girls out there who are scared or nervous to have fun alone, plaese trust me and do it once, and while at it, genuinely try to enjoy your own company. And, you will want to do it again and again and yet, again. It works, really !
My next wish is to go for for a movie alone. Will let you know about it once I get through it.
All my childhood I had been a shy person. As I grew up, I slowly shed my shyness, but I still craved for human company. I was somewhat of what you call a clingy kind of person. I was a person who hated to stand out alone in front of a movie theatre if the person with me has gone even to get tickets .I just felt people staring at me everywhere if I am out alone. My spouse hated me for it some times, and I was hurt thinking that how can he not want me by his side all the time. After all, that is what guys are supposed to expect. Slowly, I started understanding his irritation and tried my best to start spending time alone. But, I was nervous, shy, scared, embarrassed to go out alone. It was somewhere in those days, when I put it on my bucket list : "Go out alone for lunch". I have read similar lines in a lot of self-improvement articles. In fact, today morning, I came across this line on Pinterest, and my reaction was : Gotcha ! I now know how much fun it is ! "
Yeah, that's true ! I finally struck it out of my bucket list about a fortnight back. I was sick for a few days at that time, due to vomiting and indigestion. I used to feel hungry but didn't have the appetite to eat anything at all. One day, at work, I just decided to eat a lot of good food and then wait and watch whether the vomiting continues or stops. Coincidentally, my only close friend/collegaue was on leave that day. I was nervous, obviously. But, I braced myself up and thought of just doing it. I was damn hungry since I had skipped breakfast (some internal issues with spouse). I just walked down to the nearest restaurant from my office and ordered a large plate of "Handi Biryani". Handi Biryani is just a kind of biryani that comes in a pot and it is a favourite of mine. It was a bit more for me, but when it comes to food, my stomach can just expand quite a lot when I want it to. I selected a window side table to feel satisfied in my own company. Initially, I felt alot of eyes on me probably thinking "Is this girl really going to eat this entire pot of biriyani here?". The waiter even asked me whether I would like to take it away or eat it there. I just said I am gonna eat.
So, there I was, sitting alone with nobody to disturb while I indulge myself in the heavenly bites of my favourite food. Once I started eating, I felt happy, kind of proud even. I felt independent to a different extent that day. All the discomfort, embarrassment and shyness just faded away with each bite. After a while, I even sensed a few eyes on me looking with respect. (Of course, even the judgemental look as well the adoration looks were both products of my overthoughtful mind).
And now, I am so addicted to doing this, that I just don't call my friend when I go for lunch, and she gets upset with me sometimes due to this. That's a full circle I guess. From me being in the place where I used to get upset with my spouse, to being in the place where someone is getting upset with me for the very same reasons.
Haha !!! Now I feel wise :) So, all you guys and girls out there who are scared or nervous to have fun alone, plaese trust me and do it once, and while at it, genuinely try to enjoy your own company. And, you will want to do it again and again and yet, again. It works, really !
My next wish is to go for for a movie alone. Will let you know about it once I get through it.
