Strange is life's experience sometimes

I don't know why I am feeling heavy inside....... Stories and novels were something I was crazy for..... Blogging was the site I loved to wander about...... But today....I am not feeling like doing anything..... A sense of emptiness, loneliness surrounding me....... Everything went fine the whole day..... Still there is something. Can't figure out what is it...... Today my Papa talked to me very well. Today the food in hostel was better than other days and I really enjoyed it. Today I didn't get bored the whole day. I was reading blogs. Today, even I went to the market and roamed about for sometime. Today, a new aunty smiled at me.... Today, I talked to a senior by myself and she was really good with me. Even, I had talked a long time with my darling. Everything had gone very well and still, something was not letting me to be normal. What is it???? Really can't get any answer to this question. My heart is very heavy. Sometimes, life gives us strange feelings, that we can never understand. Perhaps something like this was happening with me. My Mom used to say that this happens when someone far from us misses us. Maybe..someone was missing me.... Who is that person, if it is so? Whatever it is...but it is really weird and upsetting...... Anyways.... going to bed with a question mark in my heart... Let God answer my question in my dream......!!!!

Dear friend.........

Dear Friend.........


If you want to see my smile
Give your food away to a hungry child
He will smile, you can see my smile in his


If you want to feel my touch
Talk to an old man living alone in the hut
He will bless you by touching
You can feel my touch in his


If you want to get my affection
Lie down your head on the lap
Of a mother who has lost her child
You can get my affection in hers


If you want to talk to me
Go to the orphanage and talk to the children
They will pour out their feelings
It will seem to you as I am talking.........

This is for my sweetheart.....

                               Loving sweetheart......

Don't cry, I am beside you

When you are lonely

When you are sad

Recall the moments we shared together

I know you will be delighted.

Don't fear, I am around you

When you are confused

When you are struggling

Close your eyes and feel me with nearby

I will always be supporting you.

Don't worry, I am with you

Whenever you need me

Whenever you miss me

Think of me and and search for me

I am in your heart !!!

REALLY ..............

Thank You..........

Thank you very much, my dear God

Not for that you are giving me pain

But for the strength you are giving

To bear them without much strain

I am really thankful to you

Not due to the feelings I find no one to share

But because, you are making me keep them

In my heart, without dropping a single tear

I will never forget your support

Not due to which my fate is against

But by which you are helping me to struggle

Without losing hope that my future will be best

How much should I be grateful to you

Not because you are sending me problems

But, for the patience you are filling in me

To wait for everything to be solved by themselves

FROM THE CORE OF MY HEART

THANK YOU !!!

Please reply.......

Count me my faults which

       Made me  a stranger

In your eyes, I was none

       And love lost its way to anger

Crazily am I looking for

      Your affection everwhere

In the love of anyone

       I try to find your care

There'a lump in my throat

      Tears in my eyes show

Do my tears delight you?

      Papa, I want to know....

Abnormality has crept into

     The silly heart of mine

Lost in the darkness of doubts

     My sun forgot to shine

Don't you want me to be

    Happy in my life ever

Won't you like to hear with smile

   "Papa. I am sad never !"

Then, why your blessings are lost

     And curses come its way

Why do you do this always?

    You have to reply today...................

Dream Garden !!!

There had been once a prince

Riding on a white horse

Losing his way he reached

My little garden of dreams

With him came springs of thousand

And in each path he stepped

All over my dream garden

Flowers of love got bloomed

I had in my palms there

Something I had imagined never

No matter how long I watch

His sweetness is always dear

In his cute smile and cheer

Lots of blossoms are there

New is his love each day

To my heart, he is always near

In his eyes hides an ocean

Loving him is like heaven

How lucky in this world am I

To have the sweetest one as mine

Thoughts of him gives me vibe 

His love is my only life

People seeing us feel jealous

To see a diamond so precious....